Pretty Miserable

I'm feeling very down today. I've spontaneously broken down and started crying three times since noon and every time I see myself in the mirror, I want to break it.

Here's how I see myself right now.

Unattractive: Gawky, misproportioned body parts, preteen facial hair, and a perma-mullet.
Incompetent: Why else would I need handholding performing the simplest tasks at work?
Boring: Let's face it. I am. I'm boring and consequently so is my life.

And a laundry list of other things on top of that. I'm confident right now that applying to grad school or JET would be a waste of time and money, because why on Earth would anyone think I have anything to offer or contribute? Seriously, if you asked me "why should we hire you" I would hum and haw for a few seconds and then say, "Ya know, I don't know, which is a good sign you probably shouldn't."

I really just don't feel like I have anything going for me right now. I'm marginally intelligent, but that's meaningless in today's world, poorly-read on any given subject, lack any sophisticated or crucial skills to accomplish any task, etc. I really could go on, but I won't.

I just wanted to make record that today is a day full of shit feelings and self-loathing.
It is what it is. Out.